stupidness

Recently I had an argument with my mother over the fact that she doesn't want dogs in her house (which is fine) so when I am visiting I tie my dog outside (which is fine). I also have gotten a stern warning never to ask for dogsitting from them. Which is fine. However, last time when I was invited to dinner and tied the dog outside, I came in to find my sisters' boyfriend's dog, inside the house, sans my sister or her boyfriend. I couldn't help saying something, I guess I'm still not completely mature or something, but of course it resulted in an argument. Blah. I'm just usually a pretty logical person and there's no logic to this!

Anyway, when talking about it over the phone later, I tried to apologize while still maintaining that I have a right to feel upset and like there is some favoritism going on here, when I get accused for causing everything bad that my sister has ever done in her life. Is it my fault? Who knows, I mean i did cause an uproar in her childhood by running away from home for a year when I was 16, I'm sure that had some effects on her. But to be held completely responsible just doesnt seem fair (aside from the fact that I was 16 when I made those choices!) And doesn't the last 15 yrs of being a good sister somewhat make up for one year of selfishness? I guess not.

And who are we pointing the finger at to explain the mess I made of my teenage years.... hmmmm?

Finger pointing is useless anyway, hurtful without being productive.